Here I am in my pajamas on a Saturday morning looking over at my sweet little man eating veggie straws and my wonderful husband sitting right beside him on the floor, wondering why I haven’t started my blog yet. Every day I look over countless decor blogs on my feed wishing I had a blog just like that. So now, sitting on my couch, God gave me the answer. FEAR. Fear of nobody ever reading this, fear of people thinking I’m stupid, fear of people not liking what I do to my home, fear of people slamming my blog, fear, most of all, of FAILING.
I would use every excuse in the book these past six months to not start yet: we’re not currently doing a project, I’ve got a toddler who keeps me busy (which is true but still), I’m super tired from work (also true), I don’t have pictures organized of our house, my house is a mess (probably always true), my blog doesn’t “look” right yet, and pretty much anything else I could think of.
But my blog is not a school project. There are no deadlines. Nobody is telling me I have to do this. This is all for me. This is something I want to do for me. I love design (I mean I went to school for it), I love decorating and art, I love making this old-fashioned, outdated house a home, I love other blogs about people’s homes, so what is my problem! Why can’t I just start??!!
And the answer came to me today. I asked myself, why I am I making all these excuses?? Why do I have all this fear?? Today is a perfectly good, got nothing planned Saturday, and I have NO excuse. So here I am starting. Not with a perfectly pictured and designed vignette. Not with a post about a how-to. Not with a house tour of spaces that I have designed. But with a simple blog post about me being real and being honest.
I hope I connect with some of you on this post. I hope that I’m not the only one that has let fear rule over you and guiding you in your decision making. But that day is coming to an end. It is not from God and I’m breaking that cycle TODAY! I hope that I can inspire some of you in finally taking that leap of faith, in doing something that you have been wanting to do for a while but having chains of fear holding you back.
So thanks for taking that chance with me and reading this. It really means the world to me. I hope to always be real and transparent on my blog because life is not perfect, nor is my house or me for that matter. Hopefully this is a beginning of something beautiful and I pray that I can keep pushing through. That phrase, “What would you do if you knew you could not fail?” keeps coming to mind. So my question to you today is this: What would you do?